so the first was telematch, we played many games and we lost many. I had to solo because at the start, when i passed or threw the ball to my team, they kept dropping it or could not have the strength to throw it over their friends, cos they are short and young. the second half , we started to dominate the other team. until the primary school kids came up with a bright idea of hugging me and pulling me down to the floor with 3 or more clinging on to me whenever i had the ball. so it was kinda fun playing with them. reminds me of myself when i was young and mischevious with weird ideas in my head all the time.

so we washed up and had our dinner. all the kids rushed for the food while our school's scouts all sat there waiting for the line to shorten before going. finished dinner and the responsibility comes. I had to do the investiture thing which is compulsory for every scout the accept them into the scout community. Was very nervous. almost messed up but lucky i stopped in time and undone what i had done. then we had the campfire.

It was kinda pathetic. the fire almost died and when we sang songs, the kids were all not familiar and did not sing. made us do a ladder for some character in the skit but the kids did not know any knots usable for this situation. so another fail. there was this song called 'the thousand legged worm'. we are suppose to hold on to each other back and walk around the campfire. the kids were short so they could reach with lots of effort. when we started to move, some when down and fell. I had to help them up otherwise they would get trampled on. therefore, the pathetic and fail campfire.

they asked me bout secondary scouts life and i told them some random answer and gave them some hope, i guess ?

so we cleaned up the mess caused by the fire and it was 9pm. went home at about 9.30pm

trained my rocket jumping but mum scolded for playing games too late at night.

found out that there is scouts on the 1st and 2nd of june right after yesterday's event on the 30th may. sian ar so many training . somemore all consecutively.

Aspire to study for maths and train my fitness. procrastinating for math and training. I'm suppose to go for CCA today at 3pm to 6pm but im so lazy i think i will juz skip it and slack the whole day away. Feeling really bored now any suggestions on what to do???

the first which came out was science, a nice 79 marks but the teacher marked wrongly causing it to drop to 77.5 marks. these is where my hopes starts to rise

the second geography. It came back with 60 marks. haizz was disappointed but still kept it all high. No problem one 60 only still got more subjects will get better. well thats what i thought.

the third one was literature - 62. been like this since sec 1 , no comments bout it.

fourth, maths. I'm suppose to score high for this but not this time. I got 36/100 for maths. first time failing maths and an F9. really broke my heart. This really killed me. The first time, and maths it is. I'm so screwed and you won't understand how i feel cos its like i've never failed math, always getting 75 and above but when i failed, its 36 thats damn bad. I cant describe how I feel and those who looked up to me, learning my studying methods and all, i cant face them and having asian parents, they would surely call up everyone else and spread this giving me more embarrassment. Can't stand it anymore , blame algebra. I have bad feelings and more to come with the embarrassment and the criticises going to come like hurricanes.

then comes chinese(mother tongue), i got 68 for that, kinda sad din't do as well as i thought i would. the essay pulled me down otherwise i would have gotten 75 or above.

english was like there to comfort me. I got an A2 for it scoring 72 marks. First time scoring so high for english.

So for MYE(mid-year examinations), it really demoralised me and I think i have to study harder and less gaming. Streaming year for this year so its really important and I think this exam will pull my final marks all the way down.

so heres the tabulated score:

english-72(A2)

Chinese-68(B3)

science-77.5(A1)

Lit-62(B4)

Geog-60(B4)

Maths-36(F9)

total: 62 % (lowest ever gotten always got 70 and above for percentage)

I really feel like a trash, a fool, a garbage, a useless person to society.

sorry guys, dun feel like pouring out my feelings otherwise I would really become even more depressed than now. sorry guys bye just posting for letting out just some feelings so i won't feel like i'm alone

Woke up at 9 am and my cousin gave me a call asking me to go for a swim together wif him. wah reach ther 11 am already then swim 1 hour then sian~ 8) so i got out of the pool and found out that i just got tanner :( people already calling me so tan already. Also, I kenna sunburn !!! Wah pain seh red colour touch my face got sore feeling XD.

TIRED!!~~

Came home bout 1pm and it was my grandfather's birthday. Went there and play a game called saboteurs( if im not wrong ). Bout sabo-ing others de just like the card game mafia introduced to me by my other cousin during chinese new year. Damn fun, act good then last part... SABO THEM!!!!! LOL :D got abit bored cos i sat there playing for like an hour and went to play frisbee at the playground.

play,play,play,run,run,run,jump,jump,jump. Then slipper broke :O MY HAVAIANAS !!!! crap man so expensive then break i heart pain leh. no choice now have to wear some ugly-looking slipper from now till i get a nicer pair.

went back to grandfather's house to eat dinner and played few more rounds of saboteurs then came home liao.

I bathed and its late bout 10pm now and im posting this now so i have to go sleep soon its a school day tomorrow :(

so damn tired ~~~

After the exams, i've been slacking and now my energy and stamina all gone. like a lazy boy now everyday play computer. Must go train and get them all back. :)

Bye Bye guys! will post soon

Well these few days, my friends kept talking about Team Fortress 2. I searched on it and realised it was a game powered by steam just like the game i always play, Counter-Strike Source. When i told them to play CSS(counter-strike source), well they agreed. Now, they are being idiots like coming to me and say " no no no, we wun play CSS now we play TF2 now" they really piss me off.I asked them why and they blamed me on not buying CSS for them at the start and caused them to lose interest. So suddenly, another random friend of mine found out about cracked steam. I can play all the games and those idiots boasted about it and was like lets all play TF2, imma gonna download it first. When it all came down to reality, i downloaded it first, installed the games first, found out about not being able to play at normal servers only those not hosted by steam cos the version is fake.

Today, the enthu-est guy who was like TF2! TF2!, downloaded it like after 2 weeks of the crack steam discovery. I asked him questions and he took damn long to answer just a simple question and he goes round in circles. Like i asked him whether his other computer was wif him and he said my brother will kill me if i use it. WHAT???!!! not answering my question at all and when i asked him a question i had to call him a 'pro' which he is so not. I challenged him to a match of CSS but he said he wun download it cos it sucks. Bloody coward damn piss off wif him today. Hence i argued wif him and deleted him from my list of friends in steam. I even had to call him to answer my damn question directly and he actually did not pick up and said " why must i pick up YOUR call" SCREW HIM MAN WHO CARES ABOUT THAT TYPE OF PERSON! HE's totally being an A-HOLE.

OK, so I found out TF2 is not really logical. No standard guns, different classes. Its hard to aim wif their weird and different croshair and u cant really perfect it unless u play oni that class cos different class have different weapons. Still find CSS much better than that game. Just lemme go back to that idiot. In school, he acts pro like " i have a sniper and im going to snipe u". I told him not all snipers are 1 shot 1 kill and he argued wif me denying so. He then say shot gun shotgun ur dead. Well from my description, u know fairly well he is acting like a jerk and goes round pissing me off.

well i gtg screw that useless fellow

Will post again sometime soon

U wanna know? ok lemme start. I have 8 subjects to study and I did not study and revised the whole term and it was all last minute, hardcore mugging.

First day was English, no comments since its language, what more do you want me to say. I dun like summary, thats all

Second day was Geography and Chinese paper 1, chinese same as english no problem. But for Geography... hohoho. I wasted like about 1/3 of the whole time just doing Map Reading and i did not have time to actually complete the rest. I focused too much on theory and not on practical ( map reading) the last night . I did not really bothered about land and water supply which actually were the big topics tested on the exams. I had to rush and I make lots of mistakes, left many blanks and of course, did not give reference to the picture given when they stated so. So bet I'm gonna fail like last year, 47 marks for geography ( went to check not 42 but 47)

Third day was maths and chinese paper 2, chinese same. Maths was such a brain killer. Same mistake as Geog did not bother bout the figure stuff like congruency and similarities. My algebra is as always, a failure. First question i dunno how do already XD Just to tell you guys, my school is a little extreme where we learn sec 3 or 4 maths, either E or A maths. They just plucked out some upper sec topics and dumped it in our lower sec topics and we practically went to extreme.

School does their own customised textbook, the textbook we buy are practically useless. We bought the 'o' level science book when we were sec 1 and learned from there. OMG!

Maths = FAIL

Fourth day was today and the last. It was literature and science ( physics, chem and bio) all have to do memorising. So LIT + SCIENCE = CHILD KILLER. I slept at 12am everyday since the exam week started and for just this day, I stayed till 12.30am with no afternoon nap to recharge. I'm kinda wasted already from all this hardcore mugging and forcing myself to the limit. And again for science, we did pure subjects like purely focused on Chemistry in Term 1 and Biology for Term 2. Next up is Physics in Term 3. Doing science like that is much more harder than doing combined science in one shot like most schools does unlike my school.The literature text I use is Julius Caesar, a upper sec text i guess? And we did animal farm last year in sec 1, sec 2 text BTW. It is extremely hard to find good quotes from the julius caesar as it is a play not even a proper storybook. Memorising 24 quotes all perfectly was just too much for me and trying to write it down on the exam is much worse to remember it back and plant it right down on the exam script in ink. Science was a breeze, literally as there was too little time for doing much and explaining in depth I just roughly scratched the surface to answer the question. OMG i forgotten sec 1 BIO! My food test I did wrongly! Forgotten about respiration, the alveoli! DUNNO HOW TO DRAW A SPERM AND I DUNNO THE PARTS OF IT COS WE NEED LABEL THE DIAGRAM WE DREW !!!!!! ARGH!!!!

This exam, I kenna mind raped. Really lost all my gaming mood and I'm really really tired and worn out from this exams. Did so much just for this disappointment. If I knew, should not have study, same outcome either way, disappointment and failure and make myself so tired for no reasons.

I feel depressed. T.T

Bye guys im going to skip dinner and sleep, my eyes are closing =.=