the first which came out was science, a nice 79 marks but the teacher marked wrongly causing it to drop to 77.5 marks. these is where my hopes starts to rise

the second geography. It came back with 60 marks. haizz was disappointed but still kept it all high. No problem one 60 only still got more subjects will get better. well thats what i thought.

the third one was literature - 62. been like this since sec 1 , no comments bout it.

fourth, maths. I'm suppose to score high for this but not this time. I got 36/100 for maths. first time failing maths and an F9. really broke my heart. This really killed me. The first time, and maths it is. I'm so screwed and you won't understand how i feel cos its like i've never failed math, always getting 75 and above but when i failed, its 36 thats damn bad. I cant describe how I feel and those who looked up to me, learning my studying methods and all, i cant face them and having asian parents, they would surely call up everyone else and spread this giving me more embarrassment. Can't stand it anymore , blame algebra. I have bad feelings and more to come with the embarrassment and the criticises going to come like hurricanes.

then comes chinese(mother tongue), i got 68 for that, kinda sad din't do as well as i thought i would. the essay pulled me down otherwise i would have gotten 75 or above.

english was like there to comfort me. I got an A2 for it scoring 72 marks. First time scoring so high for english.

So for MYE(mid-year examinations), it really demoralised me and I think i have to study harder and less gaming. Streaming year for this year so its really important and I think this exam will pull my final marks all the way down.

so heres the tabulated score:

english-72(A2)

Chinese-68(B3)

science-77.5(A1)

Lit-62(B4)

Geog-60(B4)

Maths-36(F9)

total: 62 % (lowest ever gotten always got 70 and above for percentage)

I really feel like a trash, a fool, a garbage, a useless person to society.

sorry guys, dun feel like pouring out my feelings otherwise I would really become even more depressed than now. sorry guys bye just posting for letting out just some feelings so i won't feel like i'm alone